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Hey lover, Two years ago we fell madly in love. Two years ago you chased me around a swimming pool. Two years ago, our hands met. Two years ago you made smile like a CRAZY person. Two years ago, you made me happy to be alive. This vision of your face smiling at mine is still engrained in my mind. I won’t forget the vision of us laughing in the water. The chemistry was out of this world. I had dreams about you and your beautiful blue eyes. Your incredible smile made my heart jump. And yet, there were misunderstandings. Three months after this I would be listening to “Better in Time” by Leona Lewis in my car. Three months later you would be staring at me with those sad eyes. And this was all over a stupid little thing I said. The happiness turned to heartbreak with one little mistake. Yeah, I tried to make up for it. We stopped ignoring the other, but it was always awkward after that. I realize now that I will NEVER see you again. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel the love I felt with you again. I met so many guys in college this year, but none of them were like you. That night two years ago was special. I won’t forget June 27th 2008. And guess what? I miss your little brother too. He was also like a little brother to me. I’m not sad anymore. I guess this means I have really moved on. And it did take about two years. I still had dreams about you this past year, even though you were long gone. I honestly don’t think those dreams will come back. Maybe this is a good thing. But at the same time, it means my memory of you has become even more distant. Eventually, I’ll forget what your face looks like. Life for me is better though. I still feel loved. No, it’s not a passionate love. But I feel love from my friends and family. And it’s a comforting love. No, this love doesn’t make my heart race, but I’m okay with that for now. I miss you and I love you. I know you’re off to go do amazing things. I’ll try my best to live out my dreams as well. As the years pass, I’ll always remember June 27th. I’ll always remember why that date sticks out to me so much. I love you and goodbye J me
