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If I met you on the streets I would not know how to react, I have thought so many times
on how I would act and what I would say, if you did not see me I would stay away but
if I was caught of guard with you I would most likely be terrified. I know I had my
problems, and still those things torment me but I never gave you the chance to really
get to know me, you see I was afraid I still am but if I could go back I would try
to explain my behaviours to you. You were like noone else, I might be just idealising
your good parts but I dont care, that is what I look for in life..that spark and
that intense emotion that cannot be explained - you once gave me a hug, ive never
really cared too much abut hugs before…but it was just like this unbelievable
force that went through me, and I can kind of still remember how it was. I told
you it was intense and you told me also you felt the same, but even then we never
saw each other again.
Your body, your smile, the way you acted, your imperfections, your laughter and
just the way you were is something I still think of…we will never be and im cool
with that, but you gave me one of the best feelings I have ever had in my life. That
is why I am writing this letter, and I hope the person you will be with will
feel the same as I did that time the last time I saw you…
goodbye
