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S.,
I can’t stand it anymore!!! Why couldn’t we have met ten years ago? Before you or I were married (to other people)? I always imagined what I would do if I met someone else who moved me more than “him” but I never thought it was possible. Now, here you are and I can’t bear to look away from you. We have awkward moments in which I know you feel the connection too, because if it were not so, than why do you always follow me?
We work together, therefore I have to see you everyday. I get to work every day wanting you to be the first person I see and you normally are since you decided to park right next to me. I can’t tear away this feeling of shame, and although we have not done anything wrong, by the mere emotion I feel for you I know I am wrong. You’ll never know how you captivate me…and I guess I’ll never know if you feel the same way. I have my dreams though. and in those dreams, you embrace me and I carress your face. How much longer will this go on? S., why did this happen now? Why do you look at me with those longing eyes? I wonder if you feel it too? I guess we’ll never know…
I think i love you,
-A.
