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dear my first & only love, i sit and cry my eyes out for you, my heart breaks from all the times you’ve left. i can’t stand not being with you. i wanna go back to when it was just me and you against the world. nothing could come between us. i miss that, i miss the indescribable feeling you gave me. i smiled every day, i had you, i had love. for the first time in my life i knew what being in love really was.. ” stephanie, i’ll always be yours. i love you more then anything imaginable. i’ll forever love you. ” you said that to me the night it happened, i lost it to you. & i still don’t regret one second of it. you were my life, my everything. my heart skipped a beat from just recieving a text from you, my knees grew weak while i walked towards you, my hands got sweaty, & i stepped up on my words when we talked, i got goosebumps from just seeing you smile at me. i could feel your love, i’ve never felt anything like it, and i still haven’t. i don’t know if i ever will. you said you would marry me, you said we’d have a family & a beautiful house, you’d give me everything i’ve ever wanted & i would reply with saying “i have you. that’s all i have wanted, thats all i need” and you’d kiss me. you’re gone again.. i miss you. i need you. please come back.. i can’t keep holding back these tears everytime i see you in the hallway & i can’t go on without you. you’re the air i breathe.. without you i suffocate.
